About forty people took part in the workshop
"Positive people speaking out". When I came
into the room skills- building exercises were in full
swing. The facilitator was using the APN+ training manual
for positive speakers and - though he said he had been
given this task at the last moment and was not prepared
- did his best to create an impromptu session of exercises.
It worked, too - people were clearly enjoying themselves
in an exercise of "telling the most embarrassing
thing that ever happened to you". After sharing
their horror stories group members identified what makes
a story "good", a story the audience can relate
to. The atmosphere in the group was great. In the break,
I asked people about their motivation for coming and
what they enjoyed about the session. To my surprise,
the first two people I spoke to were not PLWHA at all.
"I am not a person living with HIV' said a woman
from PNG. "I am a nurse working in the diocese.
I came here because I want to know how I can help HIV
positive people to speak openly. My people are afraid
to "come out". I have never seen a person
with HIV before! I want to know how I can help PLWHA
to help others? When I first came into the group I was
afraid that they would not accept me because I am not
infected. But when they heard why I came they accepted
me and I felt free". An Indian Government worker
said the same thing. "No one dares to speak out
where I work. Everyone asks why don't we have positive
speakers? But the atmosphere is too bad. The first people
to speak out will have so many problems. They need to
be real heroes. I want to know how I can help making
positive speakers happen". The third time I did
speak to an HIV positive young man from Australia. He
said, "I too have never seen so many people with
HIV. It was my choice not to seek out this group; this
was part of my own process of coming to terms with my
infection. But this is absolutely great. I was most
impressed with how varied people's motivation is to
speak out, and this added to my own motivation. I feel
I am getting reading to take on an active role as a
speaker".